My heart is in a million pieces. Today we lost my very special lady, my constant companion, my first baby, my bestest friend. I will miss you more than words could ever say. Thank you for teaching me the most important things in life. I love you so much, Tali girl.
Twenty weeks with my little twin girlies.
Twenty whole weeks have gone by, and now we're closer to the end of this pregnancy than we are to the beginning. We are half way until my girls are actually here, in my arms. I still find it so hard to believe that there are actually two babies all squished inside. We have had two ultrasounds to see these little beans and it still doesn't feel real. This is most definitely the most incredible adventure of my life.
I am so full of joy. I am full of joy, but I think I am equally full of fear. I am bombarded with comments like, "congratulations, say goodbye to your sanity" or articles on "How to Survive Twins". I am terrified of the concept of merely surviving life with my twins. My goal is to thrive with these babies that were placed with beautiful purpose into my life. I don't know much about motherhood just yet, but I do know that this experience is too important to me to just survive it. I know that this is the most beautiful time of my life. I know that I have been waiting for this for a very, very long time. But I find myself slipping into the fear that I will just barely make it out alive.
So with half way yet to go, my mantra is this:
We are meant to thrive.
My girls will thrive. I will thrive. Our family will thrive. I was made for this, and every time my husband leans towards my tummy to whisper to our babies, I am reminded that he was made for this too. We were blessed with double the love, double the joy, and likely double the trials. But we will not survive. We will thrive.
Take good care, lovelies.
I am SO happy moments like these are finally here! The sunshine has such an impact on my mood so I'm so happy spring has finally sprung in cold Canada! If I could spend every second of every day outside with these silly goof heads I would be never ever set foot indoors ever again!
I went a little too long in my first trimester without the peace and joy of yoga, and the second I stepped back into it I noticed the biggest difference in every aspect of my days. My heart feels so whole and my body feels more like my body, even with two little ladies growing in there! There really is nothing better than sunshine + yoga!
My practice has made me feel so grateful to be feeling well during this pregnancy! I could not ask for a better second trimester so far, it's truly been incredible. I am starting to be able to feel these little kiddos kick and roll a few times a day! It makes everything feel so so real, and it makes me so excited to meet these little babes! And hanging with my cute niece just makes me SO excited for next summer when all 3 girlies can be little besties and hang out all summer long!
This life is just such a wonderful gift. I sometimes forget to count my blessings, and when I realize just how many things I have to be thankful for it literally sweeps me off my feet. I am overwhelmed with this love, with this life.
I hope you all are having the most wonderful spring, don't forget to count your blessings! Also, don't forget to check out my Shop, if you haven't already! You can find this handmade blanket in a few different colours over there!
Take good care, lovelies!
I love Mother's Day. Though we should shower our mothers with gifts, love, and appreciation every single day, having a day to treat your momma extra nice is always so much fun to me!
I always love brainstorming about what gifts to give to people, gift giving is my absolute favourite thing, but this year I've been really trying to focus on purchasing less materialistic things, nick nacks, and such, because everybody already has so much of that! I also don't feel like I can give my mom a framed picture of us both every year, the woman's gonna run out of wall space. And she may also get sick of seeing my face all over her house ;)
Here are a few things that I thought of this year for my Momma, Step Mom, and Mother In Law! And in case you're wondering (if you're a last minute planner like so many of us - welcome to the club) you can throw these little thoughtful gifts together in an hour, slap a bow on top, make a card from scratch, and you're all ready to celebrate the moms of the world!
This year I thought it would be fun to provide my mom with a fun day spent together, just me and her. I wasn't quite sure where to start, we're both not fond of pedicures and manicures, going out to eat could be nice but you know, what's something more fun? More special? Well, my mom loves to garden. She has the most beautiful flower gardens in her yard every year, so I thought it would be so special to provide her with a coupon for a gardening day! We will go shopping for flowers and materials together, and spend the day making her gardens look beautiful again after the long winter. It isn't warm enough here yet to actually start planting, so the coupon thing works better for me! If it's warm where you are, you could spend actual mothers day out in the sun with your beautiful momma! To throw it all together, I purchased a little soap from a brand that I absolutely love, Hogwash Bath and Body, to attach the coupon to, and voila!
A few months ago I found out that Cheerios was giving away wildflower seeds to anyone who wanted them to help save the bees! I absolutely loved this idea, and ordered some with my Step Mom in mind. I thought this would be something fun for us to do together, and also got her some soap and lip balm from Hogwash Bath and Body! You can probably tell that quality time is the trend here, you really can't go wrong!
For my Mother In Law I wanted to get her a few pieces from Hogwash Bath and Body as well (I'm just kind of obsessed with them and all that they stand for, and who can't use an extra lip balm?!), but my Sister In Law also told us that she had her eye on the Cobalt Falsa Blanket from my Shop! We are going on a road trip together next weekend and I thought it would be the perfect road trip blanket for her! I wrapped it all up together and thought it was the perfect cozy gift for a lovely Mom.
There are tons of other fun things you could do with your mom, too! I think there is so much value in spending the quality time with your mom - hang with me, I know you've heard it all before... She really doesn't need another mug with her name on it, or decadent hand bag to add to her collection. What she really needs is some time with you, whether that's doing something new and exciting like a local art class, or just hanging out in the backyard with some lemonade. Those are the things she will always remember, the moments that you took the time to plan for her. And a hand made card never hurts ;)
I hope you all have the most wonderful Mothers Day! To all the moms out there, keep doing what you're doing, you are the most hardworking people in the world and are appreciated every single day of the year!
Take good care, lovelies!
Two little babies wiggling around inside of my belly. Two little girl babies inside of my belly!
I knew there were two all along, I think. I asked our technician, "Could you just check to see if there's two...?" She responded doubtingly, "Sure! You think there's two?... Oh... You have a good intuition, momma!" That didn’t change the feeling and shock of hearing it said out loud, but I knew all along.
I am overwhelmed. There is so much joy, gratitude, and love pumping through me at the thought that I got lucky enough to become a mom of two little built in best friends. I think my heart might burst into a million pieces at the thought of not one, but two little peanuts that are going to make my wonderful husband a father for the first time. Two little peanuts are going to fill my life in just a few short months.
Today was the most incredible day. Today was our gender reveal and our announcement to friends and family that there is not one, but two little humans growing in my tummy! Our gender reveal was all put together by our best friend Heather, and it was perfect and incredible and beautiful in every single way. After unveiling one box of pink balloons, we shocked our loved ones with a second one, once again full of pink balloons! The laughter, shock, and love was just so incredible. We barbecued, sat in the sunshine, and talked about how our world would change just one season from now.
Today was incredible. Today was the most beautiful reminder that life is terrifying, blissful, and full of incredible blessings. Having twins is so scary to me, yet so unbelievably sweet. I know Kyle and I were made for this. Today was incredible.
Take good care, lovelies!
This week my lovely friends Heather, Steph, and I went for breakfast at the most wonderful place called Pine Ridge Hollow. They have a restaurant and a store jam packed full of the most beautiful furniture, homeware, baby things, jewelry... just everything. They also have a teeny tiny teacup pig named Fern, and some goats, and a donkey, and it's just heaven on earth, basically.
We got mimosas and then headed on to Fort Whyte Alive! None of us had been before, and we discovered that it is such a gem of a place! It's a little nature park right on the edge of Winnipeg. They have a few little lakes, tons of wildlife, and buffalo! It was such a beautiful day - we finally are getting some nice weather here - and it was so much fun just walking around and enjoying the sunshine!
I'm so happy the weather has warmed up! This was my first outdoor adventure of the season, and I'm just beyond excited to fill my summer with days like this one - full of sunshine and wonderful friends.
I hope you are enjoying spring time, lovelies! Take good care!
Life Lately 23.04.16
Life has been chock full of huge life changes for me and my little family, which has been extremely exciting and outrageously stressful. Let us hop in.
In February, shortly after starting my new job, my car got crashed into. I was parked on the street at work and came out after my shift to my brand new vehicle (we had purchased it almost exactly a year prior) smashed, crooked on the street.
This left us in a bit of a bind, because Kyle and I really need two vehicles in order for us to both get to and from work, and we were left in limbo with what was going on with my car. It took almost a full month for the insurance company to decide if it was worth fixing, or if they were going to write it off. We ended up having to borrow my dad’s car for a few weeks, then Kyle’s brother’s old car, then finally we got the news that our car was going to be written off, and we would have to buy a new one.
This ended up costing us a ton of money and put a huge damper on our plans to move… but it is what it is, and it was also around the time we found out we were pregnant, so low and behold we purchased a cool ass mom mobile! I’m not going to lie, it’s the coolest mom mobile ever, and I can’t wait until I can load it up with a little kiddo and our pups and take on exciting adventures!
Onwards. I decided a little while after that that this new job I had been working at was not going to work out. There are a few reasons why, but I won’t go into detail. I have never quit a job before, and I was incredibly nervous because I had only been working there for a few months, and felt super bad about all of the training that they had put into me. I struggled with it a lot, and it made me really stressed for a while. I almost decided to stay just because I felt really bad about quitting… eventually I just had to come to terms with the guilt I was feeling, because ultimately, leaving that job would be the best for me and my situation.
My last day was this past Monday and I must say I’m pretty excited to have a little bit more time off just in time for summer adventures! Monday night my sister Meghan and I went to Winnipeg Paint Nite, which is like a paint class only sillier and more fun for the not as artistically gifted such as myself! It was so much fun to paint and laugh and just have a fun date with my sister! On Tuesday I had exciting plans to declutter and clean my house with the help of my step sister Jenn! No, I'm not being sarcastic, I was so pumped and it felt SO good! Also on Tuesday we went back to a house that we had previously looked at in January, that we loved, but thought had sold. Turns out the condition on the sale fell through and it’s back on the market… I can’t talk about it too much without getting waaaaay ahead of myself and much too excited, so I will leave that there for now… Or I’ll get carried away and call it my dream home and be super disappointed again if it doesn’t work out!!!
I spent the day today having breakfast at Pine Ridge Hollow with two of my friends, Heather and Steph, and then we went on an adventure to Fort Whyte Alive! None of us had ever been there, and it was the loveliest thing! It's like a quiet little nature park tucked away right inside the city! It was just such an incredible day spent with the loveliest humans!
I’ve also been working on a secret project that will hopefully be launching soon… so stay tuned for that but I’m just SO excited about it, it’s something I’ve dreamed about doing for a long time and I finally took the steps to get the ball rolling. You will know more soon! But there are a few sneaky peaky pictures up above if you're curious...
Probably the most exciting thing that has happened lately is that my best friend got engaged to her soulmate and I just could explode with how excited I am for her! I was asked to be one of her bridesmaids and I just am so honored and excited to be a part of something she has dreamed about for soo long! Let the planning begin!!!
Last but certainly not least, my growing bump! I can’t believe how fast time is flying, but I am 16 weeks pregnant! My bump is definitely there, and baby is the size of a dill pickle???? I don’t know that’s just what my app says. But 4-5 inches! SO crazy! We find out the gender THIS SUNDAY!! I can’t believe it. My friend Heather is going to come with us to our ultrasound tomorrow to get the results, and then we will find out with our family and friends on May 1st! I’m so excited to see the little babe for the first time and find out if I should start buying little boy or little girl things!!! I can’t wait!
That's about it for now, but keep your eyeballs pealed for more coming soon! I hope you lovely humans are doing well, and that you are making time for what really makes your soul happy.
Take good care, lovelies!
Life has been a bit of a learning curve lately, which always breeds great opportunity for learning, for growth. Life is changing, in ways that I could never have ever imagined. In the most wonderful of ways. No matter the change, I never deal well with it.
Growing a baby is the most incredible experience. It is the most wonderful gift, the most exciting time of my life. It is the most important and miraculous moment of my life thus far. And it is hard work.
I have been incredibly sick, these first four months, and I have been even more hard on myself. I am ashamed that I cannot care for my husband and my puppies the way I once could. I am embarrassed of the mess that is my home. I am sad that attempting to cook for my family sends me running for the bathroom.
But I am learning. I am learning that there is no greater challenge, no greater responsibility than to bring a new little precious human into this gracious world. I am the most blessed person on this earth, it feels like. And that is what I must remember.
I must remember that taking care of myself includes accepting that my life has changed. I must accept that what I can do right now is more than enough. I must do my best, and always remember that I am enough. Most importantly, I must learn to take care of my priorities, my values.
I am learning, and I am blessed. Unthinkably blessed.
Take good care, lovelies!
WELL THERE IT IS!!! We're expecting our very first baby! We are over the moon and are so excited to share our big news! Here are all of our silly fun announcement pictures that my sister took for us, and all of our bloopers. Some of them just have me in tears cracking up, Jack was a complete train wreck while trying to take these, he was so stressed out! I have no clue why, but it was so funny (poor guy, he's not ready to be a big brother). I wrote a post on the day I took my positive test, so you can find that below if you're interested in my super emotional thoughts :) Otherwise, enjoy these silly pictures of my growing family!!
It is January 30th, 2016.
I am pregnant.
Oh my gosh.
My hands are shaking, my breath won't slow down.
I, Sarah Elizabeth Gerylo, am growing a baby human.
I have yet to say those words out loud. I have yet to tell my husband who whispered to me this morning that he had a dream last night that he had a son. I cannot believe my eyes. I am seeing things. That is not a second line. But it is. Instant, thick, and clear as day. A little blue line. Another test. A digital one this time. +yes.
Yes? I'm growing a baby? I'm going to be a mother? My heart might explode.
I have been longing for this for so long. My heart has been aching to watch my husband turn into a father, it has been aching to fulfill my life's purpose, my dream.
A baby. A tiny, poppyseed baby made out of pure love.
I am so in love with this feeling, with this family that we are creating, with this love. I am in love with this love.
I braced myself while taking the test, knowing that being one day late was insignificant. I have taken many pregnancy tests, all convinced I was pregnant, only to see a negative. Today, I told myself it would be negative.
It took a sliver of a second to show up. A sliver of a second for my life to be forever changed.
I am 4 weeks pregnant today. I am praying. I am singing. I am blessed beyond blessed. My heart is so full.
I am growing a little love.
Lately I've felt like I have nothing to say, nothing to share. I have felt empty where I always used to find the comfort of words. I'm not sure why I have had this struggle lately. Perhaps my priorities have been skewed, perhaps my wellbeing has fallen to the bottom of the list. Mostly, I think I have felt irrelevant, hopeless.
It's hard to put art at the top of your priorities when life is handing you a million other things to handle that seem so urgent, so practical. It's hard to put yourself first when you have a home to clean, food to put on the table, countless jobs to do.
I have been struggling lately... Until today. Today I have something to say. Today I read, perhaps a little late, that Joey Feek was released from her pain and sent to heaven. Rory's words have touched me through every post he has made throughout his journey, and his most recent post had me in a pool of tears. It felt like my heart had been split in half.
Of course I did not know Joey but her story, her sweet sweet story, brought me to my knees. I am beyond blessed. I have so many things to share with the world, just as Joey did her whole life. My life is so precious. My loved ones are so unbelievably precious. This life is the most incredible adventure one could ever embark on.
So I need to embrace it. I need to embark on my adventure. I need to remember that life is temporary and oh so fragile. I need to breathe the love in, and send the love right back out. I need to be whole in this experience that is so fleeting. Whether I live an extraordinary life is up to me.
I need to live as Joey lived, touching people's hearts in the most honest way. I need to live as Indy lives, free and spirited and joyful. I need to live as Rory lives, honest and loving and kind.
Rest in peace, beautiful Joey. You are, and always have been the most beautiful angel.
Take care of yourselves, lovelies.
If you haven't read my last post, click here! It's the background story to why I eat the way I eat! Let's jump right in. My sister was diagnosed with Celiac Disease about a year ago, and has been telling me ever since that my health struggles (ex: bad body acne, bad digestion, fatigue, constant migraines...) are probably because I am also Celiac. I didn't believe her for almost a whole year. I was fine! Those health problems were due to stress, I'm sure of it!
A few weeks ago I was struggling with more migraines than usual. About 4-5 per week. It was truly crippling and I pas popping migraine medication like candy, which made me feel even more awful. I hate taking pills, I always have, but migraines are no joke. I finally decided to cut wheat, gluten, barley, etc. from my diet and my world changed in a week.
I was sad that it was working. Because I love bagels. But I was almost instantly relieved from my migraines, my digestion problems were almost completely gone, and my fatigue slowly drifted away. It was too good to be true! But this gave me some more food restrictions while dining out with family, while preparing food at home, and while grabbing something on the go.
I began eating significantly more vegetables and fruit, to the point where my meals were mostly a bunch of fruit, smoothies, and sautéed veggies. Oh and potatoes. Girl loves potatoes.
I began binge watching Ellen Fisher's YouTube videos over and over again, until I decided that I needed to give it a shot.
I didn't think I'd be able to commit to a 100% raw vegan diet straight off the hop, especially it being winter time in Canada and produce is up the booty expensive, so I decided I would try the Raw Till 4 diet.
My digestive system has never felt more wonderful. I kid you not, I am living in a dream.
I'm still learning so much on enjoying enough calories from my raw foods, and I will definitely do a post on that later on once I'm feeling confident in my routine! But I truly have never felt better. Everyone says it, but I never believed that it was worth it. I thought I would miss the flavour of cooked foods throughout the day, that I wouldn't feel satisfied and full, that I would miss out on so many different foods.
I was wrong. This feeling is so much better. I feel so alive.
Take good care, lovelies!
Food is such a controversial topic these days. Simply discussing different ways of nourishing our bodies can turn into heated debates and personal attacks. We all hate to feel like we're wrong, or that our opinion is invalid. We hate feeling inferior and embarrassed. The fact that conversations about food can make us feel these ways makes me very, very sad. So I'd like to have a conversation! I would love to know what you all eat, and why you eat it. My greatest inspiration is Ellen Fisher, and as she says it, "Part of what the vegan lifestyle is to promote love, to love all beings, and to see the good in all people and animals." How beautiful is that?
With that being said, I am vegan!
I went vegetarian in November, 2014 after watching Earthlings (you can watch it for free here) in my Environmental Science class at the University of Winnipeg. We had to watch it in class and write a paper on it afterwards. Half of the class left after the first 5 minutes, and the other half stayed and cried through it. I heard sobs throughout the lecture room from all kinds of students, the macho jocks, the quiet girls. For half of the movie, I couldn't watch. I covered my eyes, but I still heard. Thinking of that documentary... the unveiling of the truth... it still makes me shake. I cry just thinking of it. I went home immediately afterwards and cried.
After that, I couldn't even look at the meat section in the grocery store without crying. I had flashbacks, nightmares... you name it. I was truly scarred. It wasn't How could I directly support what made me feel so empty inside? There was no turning back for me. I was vegetarian.
My friends and family certainly weren't surprised. I have loved animals since I can remember. They have always been my bestest of friends, but no one was interested in joining in on my new found lifestyle. My husband, Kyle, ate significantly less meat because I wasn't cooking it anymore, however he still ate it when he went out or was home by himself for dinner. I didn't pressure him because I didn't want resentment to become a part of our relationship. All I wanted from him was his support, and that's what he provided. He is truly amazing. I knew he had an open heart, but I also knew he had to come to it on his own, as do most people.
It took me about a year after that to even dabble in veganism. For me, the struggle was cooking, and grabbing drive through food on the go. I had a hard enough time learning to cook with meat and traditional North American foods, so this new learning curve of cutting out the meat was hard. That whole year I was consuming vegan content like a mad woman. Though I was not vegan, I listened to Podcasts, watched YouTube videos, Kyle even bought me a few vegan cook books! But it still took me time. *I'll leave a few links below to some of the resources that helped me immensely through the beginning of my journey*
My main concern was what to do about extended family dinners and social situations. I certainly did not want to be an inconvenience to the person who would be preparing a meal for me. I didn't have the confidence, but the more I learned, the more I was able to speak up in small, subtle ways. To answer simple questions that all vegans get. To share my compassion with those who seemed interested. I always wanted to come from a place of love and compassion, because that's the whole point.
I started to cut out eggs and dairy as much as possible to the point where we hadn't bought any in ages and hardly even noticed... The hard part was eating with family. I still continued to consume cheese pizza with my family, or vegetables made with butter, but at home I was vegan. Slowly, this is changing, and I have been able to bring vegan chilli, green bean dishes, potato dishes, raw vegan "cheese" cake, to family gatherings, and all of the above have been a hit!
This past week, Kyle and I watched Cowspiracy. I wrote a little post about my thoughts after watching it, you can click to that here! After watching it, Kyle was inspired, finally. He went to work the next day and excitedly spread the word. Low and behold, his brother and my step sister became vegetarian immediately after taking our suggestion and watching the documentary! This, in turn, inspired Kyle and I so much more.
Kyle's excitement, compassion, and encouragement opened up the eyes of two people who no longer contribute to suffering, environmental depletion, and the deterioration of their own health. Isn't that the most beautiful thing? Now I come home and Kyle says to me, "Hey look! For lunch, me and Chris went to Burrito Splendido instead of Subway because they have more vegetarian options!" It fills my heart.
What I'm getting at is... we've all been the angry vegan, and the vast majority of us have been non-vegan. So let's choose love so that we can spread love. Let's be the glowing, happy, kind vegan in the room so that we can show compassion to ALL living beings, human and non-human. Being kind and generous will always win over degrading other peoples' choices, even when others are harmed because of them.
Here are some links to amazing human beings that changed my life:
I will be sharing another post about my experiences with different types of vegan diets, and my Celiac Disease diagnoses next! Stay tuned!
Take good care, lovelies!
Well, these posts usually start with "life kinda got crazy..." and it did. Again. And my feelings are starting to run wild. I'm inspired, overwhelmed, excited, and even more overwhelmed. Last weekend was my birthday, and I had a little gathering and it was so wonderful. I invited some friends that I hadn't seen in a while, and some friends that have recently been my rocks. A few unfortunate things happened, but over all, I ended the night so grateful to have the people I have in my life. I think my feelings that trickled into this week started there.
The Monday after my birthday party I started a new job, which is always so terrifying to me. I haven't had a new job in over 4 years, because I've been working at the same two places part time while I've been attending University. Now that I've scaled back on my course load at school, I wanted to get another job to fill up some of my hours, and so we can save up more money to build our new house in the country somewhere.
Also, we had our little baby cat, Maisy, fixed this past week, and her incision got infected, so we had to take her back in for antibiotics, and she has been a little conehead for the past week and a half, it is so so sad. She'll have to have the cone on for a while longer, because she can't stop licking at her incision. I just felt so so bad for her, but she is doing just fine!
Basically, I was a ball of stress. We're talking a huge, compulsive anxious mess. It was really hard, and I think most of it was just the uncertainty of my life. I hate not knowing. Not knowing if I'll like the job, if I'll get in trouble, what to wear, how to act, what's allowed, what my hours will be, if I'll be able to handle it... Looking back, it seems so silly, but tell me that in the heat of the moment and I'll crumple into a mess of tears on the floor.
All in all, the week at my new job was great. The people are so wonderful, and I love the passion of the office. However, I ended up working 50 hours that week between all three jobs. It was hard to get outside with the doggies (who definitely felt the lack of exercise...), to keep my home the way I like it, to write my little heart out, and to cook for my husband (and to hang out with him, of course). It was hard, but today... Today I feel incredible.
This management of my time has left me feeling some kind of invincible. I've made new decisions for my life, and I'm left feeling empowered. I'm about to draft up some new blog posts because I'm just so excited!!
Enough of my blabbering, here are a few pictures from this week! Make sure you check out my Instagram to see more of the daily stuff that doesn't make it on here!
The last picture of my fruit haul will make so much sense in my next post, so stay tuned for a little bit more about my diet!
I hope you're taking good care of yourself, dearest friends! Just know that it does get better. You'll see the sun soon.
To thrive: to grow or to develop well, vigorously. To flourish. To flourish like a beautiful flower. To live well. To be well.
What a beautiful thought, that in this world, life has the ability to thrive. We have the ability to thrive. Yet, every day, we choose destruction. We choose struggle. We choose to be ignorant, because they say that ignorance is where you find bliss, pure happiness, pure joy.
I cannot be ignorant, no matter how appealing this bliss they promise is. It is why the world is turning like it is. This idea of ignorant bliss is the reason why our world is collapsing around us.
Though the majority choose to remain ignorant, the same majority is still searching for happiness. This seems conflicting to me, because how can one become happy while contributing to a world of hate and sorrow? How can ignorance be bliss, when ignorance is the one thing standing in the way of pure happiness?
Ignorance fuels hate and sorrow, my friends. Happiness and ignorance just simply cannot hold hands. They do not fit together, they push each other away like magnets, refusing to touch, refusing to become one.
How can we be happy, how can we be fulfilled, when on a daily basis, we contribute to slaughter, environment depletion, and the destruction of lives? Human lives, animal lives, the Earth's life.
Happiness starts with every day decisions. Friends, I beg of you. If you are on a search for happiness, please take a look at what you contribute to in your every day decisions. You are making change in the world every single day.
For me, happiness starts and ends with eating only plants. I choose to thrive.
Live and let live.
Namaste, and take good care, lovelies.
Childhood brings back so many memories for me. I can remember my big sister and I dressing up my little brother like a girl, putting hair products in his short blonde boy hair, and dressing him in our dresses that our mom made for us... the girls. I can remember my sister and I putting pigtails in my dad's short, military cut hair. I remember him braiding our hair. These memories are so special to me, but there are some that I carry with me every day. One memory I remember the most vividly was when driving in the car with my mom, listening to the radio, I asked, "Momma, why are all the songs about love?" Her response sticks with me every day of my life: "Well, can you think of anything more important?"
I don't remember if I replied or not, but gosh, her answer still gives me chills. When it comes down to it, when there is nothing else left, love is what will bring us all back to life.
Some day when my kids ask me questions like these I will remember my mother's words and let the love flow through me. The most important lesson was taught to me that day with my mother's simple words, and I have been trying to live by those words every day. To grow a little love. To bring love into the little things. To be in love with life.
These are my thoughts today, maybe one day soon I'll get back to posting actual pictures of my life but it's just SO COLD outside that I've been hibernating and just spending time with my thoughts. Anyways, I hope you can find some love in your life today, and that you remember the most important things in life are grown from love.
Take good care, lovelies!
I found this quote on Amanda Watter's instagram and oh my if this quote doesn't describe my life's purpose than I don't know what does! It just spoke right to my soul. You can visit her blog at www.mamawatters.blogspot.com. Her words are like magic, I have no doubt that you will feel touched by what she has to say!
For me, this quote means so much. It means to move past your anxiety. To move past what other people think about what you're doing. To simply take charge and do what makes you the happiest regardless of what others might think of you. To find happiness. To break out of what holds you back. To be fearless.
But not the kind of fearless that means the absence of fear. The kind of fearless that is pursuing your dreams despite the crippling fear that you feel. This kind of fearless is hard. It is exhausting. It is passionate. It is rewarding. It is love. And isn't that what we all crave? To grow love in the most unlikely of places? To grow love in despite of fear?
So fight for what sets your soul on fire. Find the little victories in the love that you were able to cultivate. Be proud of every inch of your being. Be strong. Pursue. Love. Be fearless. Because you are worth it. Your soul is worth it.
Take good care, lovelies.
Happy 2016! So, like I said in my last post, I'm not one for New Years shenanigans. I don't think I've ever really made New Years Resolutions but for whatever reason, yesterday, January 1st, 2016, I started ravaging my house. Seriously. It was intense.
I went through my bathroom cabinets, my kitchen cabinets, my closet, my cosmetics... I went to town on making piles to donate, piles to throw out, and piles to give away to friends and family. To be honest, I was pretty ashamed of how much, for lack of a better word, crap that I had accumulated in my short time since moving out of my parent's house. Let me tell you, yesterday was so gratifying.
As I was going through all of my belongings that had been collecting dust and taking up space out of sight for so long, I couldn't stop asking myself why I had so much stuff! The only reasoning I could come up with was that it brought me excitement and joy when buying new products, new gadgets, and new clothes. As if buying things was supposed to be a source of happiness in my life. Which, I guess from a young age, it has been. I don't think anyone can say that getting something new isn't exciting, but for me, that feeling would wear off within a 24 hours, maybe longer depending on how long I had lusted after that item, which often wasn't very long.
So not only did I have more stuff than I am willing to admit due to embarrassment of how many garbage bags I was able to fill in one day alone, I have always been one to be stressed about clutter. This is so funny to my because, well, I have been doing it to myself for years! And of course our houses are now built with storage upon storage, out of sight, out of mind. Not to mention, I work at a storage facility. Talk about coming full circle...
So today I set out to do some research on how to live successfully as a minimalist. I wanted to do this research for two reasons:
- Minimalism sounds so sweet. Happy. Joyful, even.
- If I don't label it and learn the right tools, I'll keep accumulating crap, then purging all my new crap, every singly year.
So! Here are a few links to some really beautiful blogs that have given me such clear, concise guidance to living as a minimalist.
The first blog I found via Pinterest is Bre from brepea.com. Her post that I came across is called "7 Mantras for the Wanna-Be Minimalist" and I loved it!! Actually saying these mantras to myself while going through all of my stuff really helped me commit to the task.
The second one that I found that really helped me was on ticoandtina.com, "5 Practical Ways to Transition to Minimalism". This article has some really great, practical yet fun ways to actually get the job done. Pairing these two posts together just made the perfect game plan!
The most important thing that I have learned about minimalism so far is that it isn't just a way of getting rid of clutter. It is a lifestyle, a way of life. A way to enjoy moments more than things. To value people more than belongings. This, as some of you might know, has been my biggest joy. Finding happiness in little moments. So this new trek into a minimalist lifestyle aligns perfectly with my core values and I am so excited to learn and implement more of these values into my day to day life! So this is my one and only resolution for 2016, but I figure this might seep into every other part of my life, making it a pretty big resolution!
I hope you're all having the happiest start to your new year!
Take good care, lovelies!
That being said, this New Years Eve feels different. I feel as though 2015 deserves a special farewell, because it has given me so much. 2015 has also taken so much, but life will do what it will do, won't it? I feel so blessed to have had another year on this beautiful Earth, and so to commemorate it I thought maybe this year deserved a few words. So here is my letter to 2015.
I am so grateful. This year has brought me so many blessings, so much joy. It has also brought many struggles, which have graced me with the most humble teachings. I have never felt so complete, yet I have never felt more room for growth.
I made life altering decisions this year, like deciding to stop going to University full time, and to focus more on what soothes my heart.
I planned the wedding of my dreams and married the man who brings me more grace and wholeness than I ever thought I could feel.
I lost the most dear woman, my soulmate, perhaps. Grandma, we miss you every day.
I learned yoga. I learned it's true meaning. I learned it's powers of healing.
I learned that nature is my best medicine.
I learned that even though many people expect me to behave as a regular 20 year old girl, I don't have to live the reflection of other people's expectations. I am allowed to want what I want, despite my age.
I allowed myself to begin this little corner of the internet, even though I didn't tell anyone for months out of embarrassment.
I learned to embrace this blog, and not be embarrassed.
I told everyone about this blog, with pride.
I think, most of all, 2015 has taught me authenticity. That makes me so damn proud to say, because after all, if you aren't you in all that you do, then what are you?
So, 2o15, you have blessed me. There are no words to express my gratitude for this year and all that has come through it. It is a blessing to be here today, it is a blessing to have all that I have, and it is a blessing to look forward to another year without fear.
I know that many people have had a really hard year, and that maybe their hope for 2016 is clouded. I am praying for all those who are struggling through this change in year, and hope that you find what makes you smile, even just for a moment.
I hope you all have the loveliest close to 2015, doing whatever makes your heart happy. You deserve it!
Take good care, lovelies.
Well, Christmas has come and gone and as per usual, I am so sad that it is over!!! But this year was Kyle and my first Christmas together as husband and wife and it was just so sweet. We were completely surrounded by so many loved ones and we cannot get over how blessed we truly are! On Christmas Eve we took our pups for a stroll at my dad's house in the country, played with our niece Sadie, and then went home for napping, cleaning, and getting ready for the next day's festivities! That evening, we went to Kyle's parent's house in the country to spend the evening with Kyle's parents and siblings. We played games and just hung out and it was so so nice. That day I kept it comfy in a pair of leggings, a huuuuuge grey shirt type thing, and my plaid scarf! Ohhh and certainly no makeup. It was cozy and so fun!
Christmas Day was definitely not so leisurely. It was an adventure, that's for sure! We wanted to be able to see all of our family members on Christmas Day, so our Christmas started at 6am. I took the dogs out for a walk, because they would be alone for most of the day, and we left for Kyle's parent's house at 7:30am so his little brother could open his presents right away! We were completely spoiled by all of our family members on Kyle's side and it was just so much fun! I even got my own little stocking :). It was so sweet.
Then we packed up and headed back to the city to my mom's house, where we would open presents with my mom, my siblings, and my Grandma! Me and my siblings always LOVE opening our stockings first thing in the morning, and Kyle and I got to share one this year which was so fun! We've had the same stockings for our whole lives that our mom sewed for us when we were babies, so it's really fun to keep that little tradition even though we're all fully grown adults ;). Then we opened presents and visited for a bit... Until we had to head out to our next location!
Next we went to my dad's house in the country to visit his side of the family, and our step sisters. Again, we opened presents, visited, had a little snack, and watched silly YouTube videos that my brother provided for us... cause he's silly. My dad's side was leaving for a family dinner in the early afternoon, so when they were ready to go, we headed back to Kyle's family's house for a little afternoon board gaming, and more visiting!
Then back to my mom's house in the city we go for a Christmas feast! Some of my extended family was there and we ate and played Cards Against Humanity and it was just too funny. We had so so so much fun, but needless to say we were pretty darn exhausted!
When we got home we fed the doggies some Christmas treats, and they were so snuggly and nice. We went to bed pretty early because I had to work the next day. I slept like a little tiny baby, I swear.
My Christmas outfit was this beautiful ivory quarter length sleeved lace dress with tights and knee high black boots, and I was actually so comfy all day throughout all of our travels!
The day after Christmas we had my extended family dinner for my mom's side, which is always a blast! There's always the yummiest food and my cousins and Kyle started a tradition last year, where they decided they're going to play mini sticks in the basement every year before dinner. Mini sticks is basically miniature hockey, where you have tiny hockey sticks and have to play on your knees... It gets pretty intense and my sister and I love to watch. It's pretty hilarious!
For this dinner I wore a green basic swing dress that I got from my sister for Christmas with my grey booties and of course, my plaid scarf. I am starting to realize I need to invest in some necklaces... My plaid scarf is getting too much attention ;).
It's been an amazing Christmas season, and we feel so blessed to have such amazing friends and families. It has been so amazing to spend this season as husband and wife and we're just so happy! I love this time of year, and am a little bit sad that it's over, but I am looking forward to getting back into our routine!
I hope you all had the most amazing holiday season, I'd love to hear about it in the comments below!
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Take good care, lovelies!
Well... It's been a while. Two months ago life got really crazy, and it sucked. But... on December 15th I wrote my final exam for this semester and I cannot explain how much relief I feel. I made the decision that I will not be going back to university full time... probably ever. Full time university can be such a wonderful experience, but only if your heart is in it. My heart was aching to be elsewhere the whole entire semester, and I felt like I was missing so much of my life. I couldn't find time to write, to take pictures... I didn't do yoga for almost two months straight. So that kinda tells you how crazy my mind was feeling.
It was really hard to make the decision to stop going to school full time and just fly by the seat of my pants... it just feels like there is such a negative view on taking time off school to pursue more "unreliable" things like perhaps yoga and writing. But I know for a fact those things make my heart the happiest and so, a happy heart I shall have.
Anyways, now I have been socializing up the wazoo because I haven't had human interaction in three months and omg what I have a husband?! SNUGGLE ME HUSBAND!! I missed him. I missed being whole and present and happy and (almost) stress freeeee!
So now I have to figure out what I'm doing with my life. But all in good time, I say. For now, I will be working my measly hours at both part time jobs, doing 2 hours of yoga per day, and spending the rest of my time being a good doggy momma and housewife because I missed it so much. I CAN CLEAN MY HOUSE NOW!! WHAT IS A HOME COOKED MEAL?! gosh.
Well anywho, I hope you all have been having the loveliest of holiday seasons, here are some of the very few pictures of life lately that I have been able to snap!
Most of those are of my fur babies... but heyyyyy my face made it into a few! Follow my on Instagram to see my daily shinanigans! Also, I kinda like snapchat a bit: sarahemahon!
Anyways, take the plunge and do something that makes your heart happy today, and take very good care, lovelies!