Annie & Sybelle: 1 YEAR!

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Photography: Meagan Gerylo Photography // Rompers: Sweetly Be Yours

A whole year of loving you with you on the outside. 

My girls, my beautiful baby girls. There is nothing more special than the fact that you have never been alone. You, together, are two sweet peas who came from one little pod. You fit each other perfectly, and you always will. You grow, play, fight, and learn with each other day in and day out, and there is nothing better or more fulfilling to me.

Sweet Annie. My beautiful, fiery, incredibly smart little girl. You are so much like me, yet so much like your daddy. A perfect storm. You are so inquisitive, you copy us more and more day by day. You are a go getter, when there's something you want, you work your little booty off to get it (you mostly want momma, and you always get momma). You are attached to me 90% of the day, and though it might get hard, I wouldn't have it any other way. You make me feel so special, so loved. You are going to change this world, I just know it. 

My little Belle. You are so sweet, so kind, so independent. Your favourite thing to do is clean, which cracks us all up so much. Your spirit is so soft, so gentle, and so sweet. I am so inspired by your kind heart, you make me want to be better and do better. Unlike your sister, you could sit by yourself and play for hours and hours. You are constantly being creative with how you play and if there are books around you are always digging into them. You are so incredibly smart and tackle any new challenge with such grace. 

My sweet babies, you have changed our whole world. This year together as a family has been so hard, yet so fulfilling and so incredibly beautiful. All of the challenges we faced in the beginning of your little lives brought us so much strength and unity as a family. We couldn't have done it without all of the incredible, selfless help of our friends and family. We have been showered with so much love and kindness and help. Girls, you are so loved. There aren't enough words to tell you how loved you are by all of the people surrounding you. That, is what I'm most thankful for. 

I love you to the moon and the stars and all the way back again. Forever and always, no matter what. 

Love,

Your mama

1 year of Breastfeeding Twins: Our Experience

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Photos by: Given Ideas Photography

Before I start, I just want to disclose that this is my personal journey and testimony to why breastfeeding has been such a blessing to me. This is not meant in any way to shame those who chose not to or were not able to breastfeed. I am a firm believer that fed is best, and do not want to have anyone feeling shame for their decisions. This is just my encouragement to those feeling fear of breastfeeding their baby/babies.


Breastfeeding is the most extraordinary thing I have ever had the privilege to accomplish. The beginning was hard, painful, exhausting, rewarding, connecting, and beautiful. It took hours for me to feed both babies, as I couldn't figure out tandem feeding two tiny 5 pounders, so as each would feed for 45 minutes, the next feeding would be just around the corner again. I was sore, sleep deprived, and no one could take the responsibility of feeding my children but me. We have now reached 1 full year on our breastfeeding journey, and this is the story of our experience this far! 

We used formula in the hospital while I pumped due to the girls' low glucose levels, but I know in my heart we probably didn't need to. I was just too tired and full of hormones to really stick to my guns. Once we returned home I realized the lady I bought my pump from sold me a broken pump, which had me thinking I was screwed for breastfeeding. They received a bottle or two a day for about two weeks, but I was determined. My $400 pump was broken, my babies were tiny and needed to gain weight, I hadn't slept more than a 2 hour stretch in weeks, but I was determined. 

I let the babies do the work and let the pumping dreams go. I realized on my own that pumping would really only cause me to be strapped to a  milking machine for much longer than I ever needed to be, so I decided that buying another would be silly. I'm not sure why I thought that in order to breastfeed I needed to have a pump, but if that's what you're thinking right now - it's not true. Let your baby/babies do the work. Let them drink for as long as they wish, and more, so that your body will make enough milk on it's own. The most important thing that I've learned is that you have to trust yourself and stop scrolling through pages and pages of breastfeeding forums before you go completely mad. Your body was made for this, and if you're having issues, talk to someone. You are not alone, and you are capable of more than you know. 

If you're pregnant with twins right now and are thinking that breastfeeding will be the harder option, I urge you to really look at the facts. Even after the clogged ducts, blisters, cracked nipples, engorged breasts, a bout of mastitis, and lack of sleep, breastfeeding has been so much easier for me than pumping/formula feeding ever would have been. Here are the reasons why:

  1. You have to wash so many bottles for formula feeding, not to mention, if you're exclusively pumping, you have to sanitize your pump pieces AND bottles all. the. time. 
  2. Fussy babies? Whip out the boob. Once I mastered tandem feeding, life got so much easier when I was on my own with the girls. I knew that if they both started crying and there was nothing else I could do, I would just sit down and pop them both on and voila, two happy babies.
  3. The money, honey! I can't imagine paying for formula for two... honestly, it's saved us so much money to breastfeed and that has put my mind at rest, knowing that we'll be able to save that money to put towards our future with these little girls.
  4. The bond. Yes, this is the cliche, breastfeeding experience reason, but it's true. There is no one who can do what you do for your babies when you breastfeed them. They need you. And though some days you might really not want to feel so dang needed all the time, most days it is the most beautiful, validating feeling. Not to mention it's so hard to bond with two babies all at once, breastfeeding offers an incredible group bonding experience between the three of you, or between each one of you if you decide tandem feeding is not for you. 

I feel so incredibly blessed that I was able to breastfeed my twins, because I know that it isn't that easy for some people. Don't get me wrong, we had our trials, tough times, and painful moments during our breastfeeding journey, but I wouldn't change this experience for the world. I just want you to know, that if this is something you want and feel committed to doing for your baby or babies, it is worth it. You CAN do it, and we all need help sometimes. Find someone who supports you, and don't let anyone who doubts your abilities to nurse stand in your way. 

Thanks so much for reading lovelies, take good care!

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Flower House + 5 thoughts

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Having a photographer in the family is just the best. I love having photos like these of me and my little ladies as they grow up. This might be my favourite shoot yet, because I'm obsessed with greenhouses (who isn't these days?! they're perfection!) We were so lucky to use St. Mary's Nursery & Greenhouse and it was just the loveliest morning spent together. 

Thank you, as always, for these photos Meagan Gerylo Photography! You're the best!

I love reading Amber Fillerup's 12 things posts, so I thought I would do my own sort over here of a couple things going on right now!

  1. The girls are starting to copy everything we do now, it's my favourite thing. Belle cleans everything with her little wash cloth, and Annie will watch Kyle like a hawk, and whatever he does to her she does to Belle. It's absolutely hilarious!
  2. As hard as it always is to say goodbye to summer, I'm kind of looking forward to staying home and cuddling in the cooler weather. Summer has been so busy for us this year, I'm so looking forward to a bit of calm before the holiday season hits!
  3. Being a creative entrepreneur is HARD. I love it, so so much, but sometimes it feels so overwhelming trying to figure everything out all alone. No matter how much research you do, there's no manual on success. It's been hard realizing that lately.
  4. I'm planning the girls' first birthday party and it's blowing my mind that they're having a birthday party. I've been dreaming of this for so long!!!
  5. Looking at these pictures made me realize how desperately I need to get my hair done!!!!! 

I hope you all have the most wonderful day! Thanks for reading, take good care lovelies!

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Annie & Sybelle: 11 Months!

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We are one month away from their first birthday and it feels so strange! I can't believe that this time last year I was sitting around all alone at home impatiently waiting for them to come! I was off work, super uncomfortable, and imagining what their little faces would look like. Now here we are, a family of 4, with these two sweet little bestie crawling all over the place. They truly are the sweetest little pair and I don't know how we got so lucky!

This month has been so incredibly busy, super super fun, and a little different! I had my first weekend away for a bachelorette weekend, the girls stayed with Kyle and did absolutely amazing! I definitely missed them, but enjoyed my time away so much. It's so sweet to see them with Kyle, and just enjoying their time together. He's been working a lot of long hours this month, so when they get to spend time with him alone, it just makes my heart so happy. 

We spent time at the lake a lot this month, and the girls got braver and braver in the water. At one point, Annie actually started crawling into the lake until she couldn't touch anymore, and wanted to keep going! She's such a little fishy girl. Belle was a little more nervous, but with time she started kicking her little feet more and more. 

Sybelle has been my more clingy baby this month, typically Annie is more of a momma's girl, while Belle usually will sit and play by herself for forever. This month Belle has been really attached, while Annie has been off exploring by herself. They tend to flip flop every couple months, so I guess Belle decided it was her turn for some extra momma love. 

They love to try to climb absolutely everything, love pulling themselves up on the furniture, and are starting to walk along the sides of things. They love their little push walker thing, but they haven't quite got the hang of it yet. They love to eat dog food and get into trouble together, like playing with a tub of vaseline or lotion. It truly is never a dull moment around here!

We were pretty late on their 9 month check up because by the time I booked their appointment, the pediatritian was on vacation for a month. Annie weighed in at 16.5lbs and Sybelle was 16lbs (always .5 pounds apart!) so they've really slimmed out since they started crawling. They're not on the growth chart for weight, but are in the 40th percentile for height, so our doctor isn't concerned about their weight, which was reassuring. They just moved up to size 4 diapers, still fit 6 month sleepers, and can wear anything from 6 month clothes to 12-18 month clothes. They feel so big to me, but whenever we see other kids the same age I realize how tiny they are. They feel super heavy when I'm carrying around both of them! 

They love to wave "hi", clap, tackle each other, laugh at dad, snuggle with mom play with the dogs,  watch the cats, and eat. They eat pretty much everything, their favourite food right now is blueberries, each have 4 top teeth, Annie has 2 bottom, and Belle has 3 bottom. They say "mama," (usually only when they're upset, or need more food...) "dada," and "da" for dog! They babble "babababa" all day long, and we're working on "nana" next. 

This has been such a rambly update but that' just how my brain works now after 11 months of this twin journey! I can't wait to celebrate their first birthday! Always feeling so grateful to have these baby girls in our lives. 

Thanks for reading, lovelies! 

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Annie & Sybelle: 10 Months!

Rompers: Wildforest Handmade // Bows: Little Luba

Baby Bear Shirt: The InkPAD // Blanket: Growing A Little Love

These girls are 2 months away from their first birthday! This last month has been a big one, and we've been very busy in this house - hence the update being 2 weeks late... better late than never I suppose! They are busy little bees, and the only way I was getting pictures this month was to hand them a handful of veggie straws... Ah life with twins.

These sweet girlies are 100% on the move, and speedy, too. They crawl everywhere they want to go, and are pulling themselves up onto about everything they can get their little hands on. Baby proofing the house started this month, and now I have to find new homes for all of my plants, since we've already had a few dirty incidents and plant murders, RIP little aloe vera. 

The girls are starting to really interact with each other, and it is my most favourite thing of motherhood yet. They crawl towards each other and laugh as they get closer and closer to each other, they share food, they giggle with each other, it's just the sweetest little relationship I've ever seen. They absolutely love to "dance" (wiggle their middle) to pop songs such as Despacito. I miss country music, but the girls just want to groove, so pop music it is!

Annie has 6 teeth now, and Belle has 5. They are still teeny tiny, and have really slimmed out and lost some of their baby chub now that they're on the move, so a lot of their smaller clothes still fit really well. They can still fit 6 month sleepers, and anything from 3-6 month up, which is awesome to get so much use out of our really cute items. 

These little babes have had a lot of fun firsts this month, and are having such a blast. It's getting easier and easier to get out and about with them, and they're having more fun than ever. This month has been an absolute blast! This is a pretty short update, but we've just been really enjoying life together and spending as much time outside and unplugged as we can. It's also been crazy busy over at the shop, so life has been very full! 

Thanks so much for reading, I hope you're having a beautiful day!

Putting Your Spouse First is HARD

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It's everywhere, this advice. Put your marriage first, before your children, before your home, before anything else in which you value. Put your spouse first and your marriage will be strong. You will endure. 

But does anyone ever really talk about how hard this can be sometimes? Maybe they do... but I have recently discovered that this advice is really quite difficult to follow. I mean really, there's a household to run, babies to raise, a business to create, and then of course theres yourself that you have to occasionally take care of too. 

But then there's your spouse. They need you. You need them. You both know that, but how does it actually come into play? You both know that without one another, this life you're living, all the responsibilities that you love so much, they wouldn't exist. Your marriage is the root of anything that you are currently building. And with anything, it must be nurtured. We all know that. But put first? Damn that's hard.

It's hard when by the end of the day, you are so tired you can hardly get up to brush your teeth or finish the dishes that so desperately need to be done, let alone spend some quality time doing something that makes your spouse happy. As a stay at home mom of twins, it can be hard to be touched, needed, and whined to all day. They are babies, it's what they do. But when your spouse comes home and needs more from you, too... that's hard. Of course they need you, just as much as you need them after a long day of raising babies. Most days, they will put their hard day aside to make sure you get your well deserved break. Some days, you will have to be the one to put aside the blood, sweat, and tears to give him the break. 

Pull yourself up. Do it. It will be the hardest part of your already hard day. But they will notice. They will be changed by this. This will move them silently inside. They may not notice at first, the sacrifice that you have made for them, but it will create quiet, unwavering strength. 

Stay up late to talk it out, fight it out, hug it out - like you used to, when you had all the time in the world. Cook their favourite meal. Send them shopping for themselves - not the babies - with the little extra money that you can hardly spare. Send them to an outrageously priced yoga class. Kiss them on the forehead in the midst of the chaos. Let them know that they are your number one, no matter what, even when you are mad at them. Even when you don't like them. Make sure that they know, even then, that you love them. 

Putting your spouse first is HARD. But this, this is how you survive: by growing love in the middle of a drought. Never stop growing a little love. Ever. 

Take good care, lovelies.

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Over the past few weeks my mom and I have been working on a new product to add to the shop that is 100% handmade by yours truly, moi! It has been such an incredible experience to learn these new maker skills from my sweet mom, and I'm so excited about sharing this new product with you all so soon! I have spent so many hours creating, and it has been such a wonderful experience for me.

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I thought I was being all productive, getting shit done, getting some decent (ish) photos of them until I looked over the photos the next day only to discover I switched the babies around. Annie is ALWAYS on the left in these photos (her name is on the left of the chalk board) and I for no reason at all, put Sybelle on the left. DUR. Then I thought about retaking these dang photos, which is SO much effort, holy moly, and decided that this was a funny story and this is exactly how life happens sometimes. So behold, their 9 month photos.

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My friend Heather and I used to walk a couple times a week at Birds Hill Park with our pups pre babies. We used to talk about when we would have babies and how amazing it would be to bring them here. Finally, the day came when we could bring the twins and it was the first of many beautiful walks all together.

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We spent last Sunday out in the boonies with our family enjoying the great outdoors! I've been looking forward to bringing our babies to one of my favourite places on Earth, and now, with winter behind us, the time has finally come.

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